Mary Jones

What're you doing? Nothing.

2009-11-17T10:56:00.001-05:00

What're you doing? Nothing. .
Clearing my brain, looking at rain
What're you seeing? Nothing.
Hoping to bring some little thing to ackowledge my being, nothing.
Where're you going? Nowhere.
Moving my feet along down the street, getting from here to nowhere.
Nowhere to go, moving real slow, going? don't know, just somewhere.

The snow is non-discriminating . . .

2009-11-09T17:54:00.003-05:00

The snow is non-discriminating -- that is what I view.
It falls upon the gardens but upon the Common too

Carpeting so beautiful, of the softest quality
Embroidery on the branches of the most ordinary tree

Snow will touch an open hand, no matter poor or rich
And kiss the lakes or puddles, not ever caring which

Upon the rooftops in the slums, the snow falls pure and clean
As it does upon the mansion roofs of men of wealthy mien

Snow rings the bells of churches and, as gently, signs of dives
And hugs the puddle-pusher's cart, like the car the chauffeur drives

The pious and the godless men are equally painted white
And the white and black are equal as if they walked by side at night

Oh snow, you turn to beautiful, the dump, the garbage can
And truly you're magnificent, treating equal every man

When I consider . . .

2009-10-18T14:33:00.000-04:00

When I consider how my time is spent, I often pretend I'm blind
And try to remember just what it meant to look for and to find

When I consider the time I use and even stay up late
Making lengthy lists, "To Do"s and deciding what can wait

When I consider how my time is spent, and the hours I stay awake
Something important didn't get sent (time flies, for goodness sake!)

When I consider how my time is fun, remembering this and that
Keeping house when there's noone (oh, sometimes the
neighbor's cat)

When I consider how my time is spent, I cringe and wonder why
I seem to want to circumvent the fact that I must die

That the substance that is "I" gets spent, not knowing itself
just how it went. And sometimes someone now must find
a new world , of a different kind, where we don't spin around,
as in a vent, and wonder how in the world our time
was spent.

new poems

2009-10-15T10:28:00.002-04:00

Shades of Green

The pine, an almost intense green,

and almost as dark as night

The appletree blossoms, falling fast

Are as soft as the sky is light.

White blossoms and green leaves

come down with a shower in a gust

of wind that lays on the garden and lawn

a painting in green and rust.

And the sun shines down on the

painting, giving it now a shine

I would like it to have it my signature

But God says, "No way - it's mine."

Oct. 3, '09

Charles Street Is Special

My neighbors, the greatest

Are always there, for me

I think of them always there

Just where I love to be

My house, standing lonely

And the river, running free

The ducks, the geese, the herons

Do they ever think of me?

Little Bird

Little bird, up there in the tree

You'd be singing your head off

if it were not for me

Little bird, with nothing to do

You're looking at me and

I'm looking at you

Sweet little bird, up there in the tree

I can't reach you up there -

Will you come down to me?

One More Card

2008-01-07T16:41:00.000-05:00

On Christmas eve I went to the mailbox -- there just had to be another card. The box was empty but just as I started to close the door, I spied a white envelope almost buried in the snow somewhat away from my reach. Here's the story:

JUST A LAST MINUTE CHECK TO MY MAILBOX -- THIS TIME OF YEAR, MAIL COMES SLOW
CARDS JUST KEEP COMING FROM PEOOPLE I LOVE --THE BOX IS EMPTY -- LOOK, THERE IN THE SNOW:

HOW CAN I REACH IT? I'LL GET AA LONG STICK. BROOM HANDLE, MAYBE -- THAT SHOULD DO THE TRICK
OH MY, IT IS WILLING BUT SHOULDN'T HAVE BEEN CHOSEN. IT ONLY SLIDES OVER THAT ENVELOPE
WHICH IS DEFINITELY FROZEN

MAKESHIFT, BUMBLING, WITH SCISSORS AND SOME GLUE
WELL, I DID NEED SOMETHING SHARPER -- WHAT ELSE COULD I DO.
CLUMSY, FUMBLING, WATCH THE ICE -- LEAST, A TRY
NOW IT'S GETTING NIGHTTIME. IT'S NOT WORKING, NOW WHY?

AND JUST AS I'M THINKING: ANOTHER IDEA
THE ENVELOPE STARTS MOVING. OH, OH, MAMA MIA!
YES, HERE IT COMES CLOSER, BE STEADY, DONT SLIP
YOU KNOW YOU CAN DO IT -- YES, HERE IT COMES. Z I P!

YOU'VE COME A LONG WAY BABY AND HAVE COME TO NO HARM
NOW I CAN REACH YOU -- I'LL JUST STRETCH OUT MY ARM
AND AS NIGHT IS FALLING, YOU'RE HERE IN MY HAND
AND IT'S CHRISTMAS -- SO, LET THEM JUST BRING ON THE BAND!!

The card, just a little wavy, was from Elilzabeth and contained
photos that suffered no harm-

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYBODY, MAY 2008 BE FILLED WITH HAPPINESS AND GOOD HEALTH FOR YOU AND YOURS.

2008-01-01T09:03:00.000-05:00

UP ON THE ROOFTOP

2007-12-30T19:47:00.000-05:00

PLAYFULLY I KICK AND WATCH THE SNOW FALL ON THE PEOPLE DOWN BELOW
LAUGH AND I KNOW THAT'S NOT VERY NICE, NOR WATCHING THEM SLIP ON
THE SLIPPERY ICE

OH WINTER IS FUN AND YOU'LL AGREE IF ONLY YOU'D COME OUT AND
PLAY WITH ME. MAKE AN ANGEL -- IT'S EASY, JUST LIE DOWN FLAT
MAKE A SNOWMAN WITH NOSE AND HAT
MAKE A DRAGON, GREAT AND FIERCE
WITH THORNY FEET AND EYES THAT PIERCE

UP ON THE ROOFTOP, HERE I PLAY
90 YEARS OLD, IF EVER A DAY
UP ON THE ROOFTOP -- SWISH, S W I S H, S W I S H
HOW WOULD I GET HERE? DON'T I WISH!!

UP ON THE ROOFTOP

2007-12-30T19:45:00.000-05:00

Medway

2007-12-29T16:46:00.000-05:00

The snow is non-discriminating -- that is what I view
Falls upon the gardens but upon the Common too
Carpeting so beautiful, of the softest quality
Embroidery on the branches of the most ordinary tree

Snow touches the open hand, no matter poor or rich
And kisses the lake or puddle, never caring which
Upon the rooftops in the slums
The snow falls pure and clean
As it does on roofs of mansions
owned by men of wealthy mien

Snow touches bells of churches
and as gently signs of dives
And hugs the peddler's pusher cart
Like the car the chauffeur drives

The pious and the godless men alike are colored white
And the White and Black are equal as if they
walked by side at night

Oh snow-- you model beautifully, the dump,
the garbage can
But truly, you're magnificent, treating
equal every man.

Medway

2007-12-29T16:41:00.000-05:00

2007-06-11T20:47:00.000-04:00

Paddington, It Will Be All Right

the clouds seem restless
like something opening up
blue lakes here and there
thrusting the light forward
the sun popping
where'd she go, the sun?
tufts of dark
spots of light
powdered green
racing caterpillars
long necks, gaping shovels
sponge-like sky
heraldic
small blue lake in the sky
gray sharks swim over
no form, no faces, no angels
purposeful, with a plan I do not know
frivolous
where are the trains?

the marsh

2007-06-09T20:02:00.001-04:00

The marsh looks very plush this morning. Thick, healthy. Guess it liked the rain we had, or maybe it is that way because of the high tide that came in awhile back and turned the marsh into an ocean or at least that is what it looked like out our window. At breakfast Carol spotted a dolphin catching fish, bringing his catch up onto the bank, and I ran to the living room for the binoculars. See him? Yes, I saw him splashing around looking for more fish and it was quite a sight. But he decided breakfast was over, I guess, because he headed on back to the ocean, until he was out of our sight. Carol saw a couple of dolphins in the channel close to the house, but I haven't. One could stand and look out over the marsh for hours and watch the pelicans dive for fish, or the heron or Ibis, or egret. But as I get to know something about these birds and fish, their habits, etc. the timing will be a lot better and I won't be looking at a quiet Marsh, which is itself interesting and beautiful, but will catch its wild life and all the shenanagans that go on there.

on the beach this morning

2007-06-09T11:54:00.000-04:00

It was just what I needed -- a nice walk on the beach with Mike and Carol. The sun was hitting my back, although it was quite early. Not many people here yet. The pelicans put on a show of their own, diving into the waves, not quite sure what to do with their feet, but moving very fast, grabbing a fish then up and away. It was an interesting few minutes (seconds?) they took to establish themselves and stay put, wings flapping, beaks seamingly heavy but up and down and very fast.

I was distracted by a find of Carol's just then -- a crab, just up and out of the sand in one of the small "puddles" made by the incoming tide. The crab was a little annoyed, I thought, as he moved his large appendage in a thrusting sort of way, opening his mouth to show small claws (teeth?)

Anyway, I've a lot to learn yet (and I'm only 89). Anyway, watching the pelicans and looking to see where Carol was, I found myself in deeper water than I had planned on, and one more step landed me face down in the Atlantic ocean! Wow! The water was warm and a kindly hand extended by a large man there, helped me get to my feet and establish just where I was, then Carol, and I was back to stable footing near Mike.

We walked then a bit further, my clothes soaking wet but loose and already drying in the sun, we looked again at the crab, and Carol then spotted a sand bubble and said, "look, there's another one." She maneuvered the sand a bit with her fingers and then started digging. There it is! Another one and this time I really did see the popping eyes. Then a large threatening claw moved out and upward, and bubbles started to ooze from his mouth. Then I saw the litle claw-teeth (?).

This crab really did seem very aggressive, his large claw thrashed about and Carol was brave enough to flip him over a bit where we could see the underside, with all the little moving appendages. I could have stayed there all day, bending over them -- or maybe not. But never have I ever seen such defensiveness -- So crabby. And that little thing that we had disturbed went right back, down deep into the sand, while we headed for home.

Family

2007-06-08T21:10:00.000-04:00

Working on my family tree is never-ending,
as I pick up photos here and there, I start to wonder was I there
then -- too many things going on at once; too many people
A lot of bending. Confusion and whatever transpired, I am left
with a happy feeling of being with each and every one
of my brothers and sisters. Some of those special moments
pop into my head now and then, but it's my very scrambled memory
that keeps changing the scene. Interruptions, there when
the memory brings forth one moment clear but brief,
and there must be a lot more I've not remembered -- good grief!
Who's keeping score?Frustrating, like not being able
to finish a book when you can't find it again
or somebody took it, so make your own ending
and as I write, and look out the window,
a heron in sight, Carol leaves not only the breakfast table
but even the kitchen, Mike too, not in sight

It's got to be Friday -- Oh, I'll see them about
when I learn what I'm doing
or who's going out.

caterpillar

2007-06-07T13:21:00.000-04:00

The sky is dull, nondescript? No, there's the sun. It's behind me this morning. Just as I turned my head it hit me -- right in the eye. It's going to be a sunny day and I guess this tiime of year, that means hot. That's okay. We get through the hot days, especially those of us who don't have to be on the roof, or in a caterpillar somewhere. Caterpillar. What a nice name, better than John Deere. I always loved caterpillars anyway. I wasn't a little boy, ever, but I loved to watch these big machines with shovels move large chunks of marble or rocks, or telephone poles, when my sister used to take us in her Ford coupe to Milford or Framingham, or somewhere else. Especially liked the little furry gold and black caterpillar that was on the grass under an apple tree, or the one I was watching slowly making its way along one of my father's planks laying across a steamy hot mortar bed, which I was quickly pulled away from. Later on there were more and I could watch them. They didn't try to avoid me, like the worms did. When I spotted a worm, the minute I turned my head he was gone back into the ground. Sometimes when my father, or brother Joe fished, they would let me pick them up one by one and drop them into a pail or tin can. I thought they were collecting them for me but I learned about fishing, saw the fishing poles and watched while they maneuvered the wriggling worm onto a hook -- oh, that I didn't like so much but learned to accept it, I felt it though and wondered if it hurt. They let me hold a worm in my hand. I wasn't too comfortable about it. I wanted to hold a caterpillar but I don't think I ever got that chance.

The Mocking Bird

2007-06-06T08:28:00.000-04:00

Wait! I'm not ready yet. But the mocking bird sings, and the light persists. My eyes refuse to open and the sun beckons to me. I stretch, try to cooperate with the sun. Put my two hands on the side of the bed -- Carol puts my hearing aid in and the mocking bird gets louder. I lift my body, forward. I can do it, I thought. I fix my eyes on the sides of the bathroom door, where each hand will go has to be determined. I lift up off the bed.

Here goes. Now, yes I'm awake. What a beautiful day, sun shining, birds singing, and especially the mocking bird who sits on the corner of the roof outside my bedroom window. I don't know who she's mocking this morning but it's wierd. Maybe she's mixed up, can't get the sound just right that she wants to mimic. I take another look out the window -- she's gone now. The marsh is low. Don't know when the tide is due to come up and spill into the marsh, and bring the herons and ibis, maybe pelicans, and me to the window or to the porch with binoculars,. Then to my bird log to write up the specifics. What's today, I ask. The response isn't enough. I know it's Thursday, June something - 4? Is it going to be a warm day? Who knows, you say. Who can predict the future?

So I settle back. Right! Brace yourself, come what may. Write.

Home for a Visit

2007-06-05T08:38:00.001-04:00

Morning is here again. I look in the mirror at my face -- ooh! Is it
the South Carolina sun? Carol says, don't look in the mirror first
thing in the morning. You're fine. Write!

I'll be going to Massachusetts soon and look forward to seeing
everybody again. And my house. I wonder who lives there now? Mice?
ants, spiders, moths? birds? squirrels? What are they eating? We
left no food. They could read. I left lots of books in the library
there. Oh, the worms. They may have gotten to the books. I'm not
sure I want to go back into that house now. But I was brought up
there, and there are things...things!

What things? All around us, some of them ours, some we wished were
ours, and we kept our things in a box -- maybe the little wooden box
that the codfish came in when the fishman with the truck came by, It
had a slide cover and we could print our name on top, so noone else
would touch our things, unless we let them. We loved the codfish
cakes my mother used to make for lunch sometimes. Left a nice salty
taste in your mouth. I loved that!

And bread and molasses too -- I loved bread and molasses. That's what
I'll ask for when I go up to Massachusetts. Bread and molasses, and a
glass of milk. But in Chelmsford, it won't be the same.

Together, or Not

2007-06-04T19:41:00.000-04:00

One thing I remember about my sisters is that there would always be me and one other, never Lily and Thelma, never Esther and Lily, nor Thelma and Mabel, Thelma and Esther, Mabel and Lily, oh! so many combinations, but it was always one of these and me.

My brothers, however, were most of the time in twos, or threes, or even fours. I don't know why this was so. But it was very special if I had one brother to myself -- say,

Eddie, who lived next door let me watch his fingers as he strummed his banjo, let me pick cherries from his cherry tree,

Leo, who taught me to play the violin, who let me spin his records of overtures to The Barber of Seville, Aida, Tosca and others, the Greats: Beethovan, Chopin, Handel, Grieg, Tschaikowski, the opera tenors and other great music treats. Leo had a Victrola and I had to kneel on a chair to reach the record player. He taught me how to place the needle down carefully so as not to damage the record, and who leaned over my shoulder while I struggled with bookkeeping and accounting, giving me some really good pointers that made me understand what I was doing,

Tommy, who would watch an insect with me, or show me the roots of a tree, or a serated leaf, or take me in the canoe and let me paddle up front,

Jimmy, who listened to me "play" the violin, and then played something for me to listen to, and who loaned me a dollar one day when I was desperate to buy some school card with my name on it which we couldn't afford, nor could he,

Charlie, who would also let me paddle the canoe, or would look up from a book he was reading to talk and tell me what he had just learned from it, or hand me something he thought I would like to read, or just talk

Joe, who would have me touch his pet, a turtle, a skunk, , a rooster, a crow or a birddog and tell me they were my friend and not to be afraid.

Ernie, of course, was just a kid like myself, but he too was fun to be with, alone or with others. Ernie was always pushing me away, but I was more than willing to "go get" anything he wanted, and listened to him and hung on to his every word.

My sisters? I think mostly I was in the way, when they were learning to cook, sew, or doing their own thing. Except for my sister, Mabel who took "us kids" (Esther, Ernie, myself and younger brother Richard) for rides in her car, and showed us what to look for, like cows, horses, churches with their towers and crosses, out-of-state number plates on cars, water and boats on a river when we crossed over a bridge.

Brothers, I had 8 of them. My younger brother, Richard, died at the age of l0, when I think I was about l2. Sisters, I had 6, but only knew 5. A sister who died before she was a year old, had she lived would have been another older sisters.

What a wonderful family I grew up in.

Lily

2007-06-03T20:38:00.001-04:00

If Lily were not in plain sight in the kitchen, on the porch near the kitchen, in the dining room or living room, and you saw her just a minute ago, then she had to be in the library.

So you take a quick glance into the library -- she's not at the piano and besides you would have heard play (although she does play more softly than anyone I know), or on the typewriter (and I've never heard such a quiet typewriter either!). Probably the TV is on, or there are just too many people in the house.

When Lily had a story to write for the newspaper, she would just slip in there and type it. I think it was just her slipping in and out of the library, taking or making phone calls in the hall, and getting right back there at her typewriter that the rest of us didn't have quite programmed in our head. I suspect that when we peered in one door, typewriter in sight and she not there, she was on the phone in the hall, from where she may have slipped right through dining room, living room, the front hall and through the other door, back to the library and her typewriter. Or, you try again and she's not there -- maybe she is on the sunporch, looking at something or somebody out the window, or upstairs for something or other. As you may have guessed, Lily was good at slipping in and out of places. She could be right there with you and if you looked away for a second, she could be seen 'way down there by the river, or could have disappeared into the greenhouse in back of the garage.

But, if you took the time to clip her writings from the newspapers, you would find that she not only typed up weddings and anniversary and birthday parties, holiday or other special functions at the churches, or parks, she threw in short pieces about birds, rare or otherwise, children playing, or just about the pleasures of canoeing on the river, or enjoying flowers that came up unexpectedly, wild or planted by someone last year. She made up stories of human interest, of antics of animals or children. Every day she typed and every day she clipped from the newspaper.

And she had time to cook and prepare meals, to run errands in her car sometimes to drop her writings off to another Milford Daily News person, or just to "pick up something" from "somebody." She found time to garden, to help Tommy in his greenhouse, to help Miriam with whatever in her house, or to hellp her plant something in her yard.

Lily found time get our mother settled for the night, play scrabble with us, and then go to bed and read.

But when did she type?

Ruth

2007-06-03T10:56:00.001-04:00

Ruth was a beautiful woman. Skinny, but with the most beautiful skin I ever saw, smooth and white, round dark brown eyes, beautiful teeth. Jimmy was small, played the violin, had a great big smile. He was special, and he now had a beautiful wife and three small children. When they walked up to visit us, Jimmy was always outside with my father and Ruth, with the children, would come in and sit in the kitchen with my mother and the rest of us.

The oldest son, Allan, was frail with bowed legs -- which my sister Mabel, a nurse, called "rickets." Ruth would have no part of "rickets" for her first-born, Allan. She argued consistently with Mabel, "He doesn't have rickets" she would say. I listened to this argument over and over again. It disturbed me. I asked Mabel about "rickets" and she would say, "He needs to be in a hospital -- his legs can be fixed -- it's a bone disease -- it has to be attended to early. I then began to wonder about Ruth. Why didn't she listen to Mabel? Allan was one of my favorite nephews, when my brother, Eddie moved away, with "Little Jimmy" and Donald. And I wanted Allan's legs to be straight, normal. He was such a cute little guy, big brown sad eyes. I used to read to him when I could. But most of the time, the three little ones clung to their mother's knees wailing, and she would say, "oh she wants her bottle and I told her she's too old for that," or "he wanted to go to his other grandmother's house," or "he wants to go down to see the river. -- don't pay any attention to them." But of course we did pay attention -- how could we not?

All conversation of course was out of the question becauses of the screaming and bellowing of the children, and the angry mother. Stopping to appease did not help because usually it meant a kick with a small but sharp foot --sharp because of the angle of the child's foot as it landed on your leg or stomach. Or, if not a kick, a bite, with sharp little first teeth. Then, a piercing scream when Ruth herself bit back. I can see now her slender white fingers with the diamond that Jimmy had given her, although I don't know how he could have afforded it, holding the child tight to keep him still.

I loved that little boy, Allan, even when he bit me.

Old Maple Tree

2007-06-01T08:57:00.000-04:00

A sad day it was when our Eddie's old Maple Tree came down. This was the tree that was in the way of his "perfect" hedge, when he lived with his family, next door to us. He loved the tree, though, and stopped his hedge for the tree and picked up on the other side.

The tree would remember all the people that went in and out of that house while Eddie and his small family lived there, and would remember the families that came after he left. him. The tree remembers

The day my neighbor ssid -- that tree is dangerous. See those branches -- right over my house, and yours, right over our cars sitting there in the driveway. It's got to come down. Yes, I said, it is dangerous -- would wreck your car, and if lightning struck and it hit the house, someone could be killed. Yes, it should come down. I was sad when I said that.

Sitting on our porch, we often watched a squirrels scampering up and around another interesting tree growing up there. and leaning very close.

One day, a squirrel ran across the driveway carrying a baby squirrel in her mouth. We watched as she moved across the lawn, toward the lower lawn and river and then across the small marsh, built up into a small island, There were many tree down there but a large willow tree right by our dock was her choice, but we lost sight of her then. But before long, there she was again, crossing our driveway, then the patio, with another baby in her mouth. This went on, with many trips -- at least four, possibly five. Oh, that poor mother, we said. And we knew she had been evacuated from her home in that tree.

We tried, many times, to recognize that mother squirrel among the many that came and went but felt we had lost her. Now, when I see the squirrels running across our patio and up and around that tree, I think some of them are her babies, and feel happy.

where are the birds

2007-05-30T14:49:00.001-04:00

In 1988 I began to notice the birds were diminishing around my place in Medway. I wrote this poem about it:

Where are the Birds?

What has happened to the sparrows? Oh yes, there are still a few around. I could say at this time of year, spring, that they have all gone into the woods, where it is peaceful and there is plenty of pickings with buds and berries, BUT where were they when the ice covered the tree buds and the goodies, such as they were, on the ground? You would think the sparrows would flock to this yaard where Tommy puts out all kinds of seed, and makes sure the supply is replenished daily. But no, the sparrows, I'm afraid, are thinning out! But we do have other birds around.

First I shall mention our guests uninvited -- the pigeons who leaves our patio blighted; the doves who walk on my car, like the cat, and leave prints on my windshield that I never get at. And now with the big ones, there's always the crow -- but lately he's gone and why, I don't know. And speaking of blackbirds, there are some and then some: We like to see grackles, but then starlings come; and the catbird, the bluebird --? (I'm drifting away) the cowbird (a brown head), I saw
Nuthatches; finches, both purple and gold; that bluejay! We watch her, so wicked and bold; the cardinal is one to be seen and be heard, and we all love the siskin, a sparrow-like bird. But my favorite of all, on the tree or the ground -- the cute, little chickadee, always around. Did I mention the redwings who come when they can; woodpeckers (redheaded, downy, hairy) in Jan (??). Now, springtime, a few have flown up and away, there's a robin -- whose lonesome -- what more can I say?

more photos

2007-05-28T11:20:00.001-04:00

Margaret, Thelma, Ernie, Lily:

Margaret:

Jack, Richard, Miriam, my mother, Tommy, Celia, Lily, Eddie, Mary:

Marian and Jimmy:

Tommy, Mary, Margaret, Lily, Thelma:

Wedding Reception

2007-05-28T11:09:00.001-04:00

There I was, walking up Haven Street, pass the Smalls where Jimmy Small -out there in the yard, always said a big hello, and Mother Small waved from the porch window. We -- oh, I must have been accompanied by the rest of the "kids," my brothers Richard and Ernie, but I was not aware of them -- crossed the tracks of the New England and Hartford RR, up to the big white house where Margaret, Nellie, Jimmy and --

I'm so mixed up! Was there a Fred Allen? Or was this Fred Tingley, who married Margaret (not this Margaret, but Margaret Small!) Oh, this is getting to be as bad as tracking down the Joneses for my family tree!

Anyway, Jimmie Allen always gave us a big smile with his hello, and then we heard "there goes the little Jones girl, and there's the little boys -- all of them!" (no, they knew it wasn't 'all of them.' They never used the term, "kids," the name we had become used to, at home.

And so we walked, past the other big house on the left, where noone seemed to be at home, and we crossed the main road, Village Street. No cars. We joined the people already gathered at the house "with the open porch." That was our cue so we'd get to the right place. Lots of busy people were there already, moving about the lawn, and lots of music, and noise.

We were collected and grouped together for a momentous shot, but then pushed back a little so that the bride and groom, my brother and his bride Ruth, could have their pictures taken, in a group with Tommy, best man, bridesmaid Avis, Ruth's sister, her father and mother Hardy, Tommy's, and our, mother and father Jones. And then, we were collected for a group shot.

I remember me - with the fat, heavy curls over my shoulders, a huge red ribbon on the top of my head -- don't remember what I wore, except for the black patent leather shoes, strap across the instep .

There was a lot of confusion after that, people moving around, laughing, eating, much confusion and I believe a great deal went on after we -- the kids --crossed Village and walked down Haven Street, with good things to eat in our mouths and hands, past the Allens, past the Smalls, and up our driveway, home.

Chance

2007-05-27T12:28:00.000-04:00

When Tommy's dog died, Lily and I were glad. He moved across the floors of the house, dragging his two paralyzed hind legs. It was pitiful to watch. He was a dog that Tommy had bought after our family dog, Buddy, had died of old age. Neither Lily nor I cared much for this new one. I forget his name, but then, I don't think he was too fond of us, either. Anyway, it was a blessing for us when he did die. But Tommy missed him. One day, Tommy decided to go to the kennels and pick out a new dog. He took a little neighbor girl with him. Jeannette was always with Tommy anyway -- he taught her how to paddle a canoe, how to identify trees, by the bark, the leaves; he made her aware of birds by their songs, the names of flowers, shrubs. He taught her how to climb trees by rope and to repel, and they would look at books together outside, or in the "bungalow" on rainy days, feeding biscuits to the dog.

At the kennel, Tommy and Jeanette looked for a new dog. Jeanette fell in love with a big black dog, while Tommy was busy looking for a small dog. And they pondered, and pondered, and pondered. Jeanette said, "this is my dog," Tommy said, "I don't think Lily would.. but if you took him--" and Jeanette said, "I don't think my mother would.. but if you took him--" And they both smiled, said together, "Let's take a chance."

And there they go -- the three of them, in the canoe, Tommy, Jeanette and Chance. I never saw such a happy threesome! Jeanette cared for Chance, fed him, took him home with her. He got to know the old dog, Nicky, made friends with Jeanette's mother. Lily and I got to know Chance. And everybody was happy.

2007-05-26T09:02:00.000-04:00

Tommy in the Garden

Tommy, look now -- see him drag
The hose to water his flowers near
the window, where my mother, aged
sees danger
Calls: "racoon out there in a rage
Get someone to handle whatever grade
of rabid animal. -- they/ve got the gear
Tommy, drag it over --squirt it grand
He'll wreck his garden now, oh dear!
There's the truck, their coming -- dang!
Why is he bringing that Great Dane?
Don't go out there --My mother's anger
wasn't like her. Lily's the dean
around here and she's grand
But Tommy! The flowers! How can he earn
a living this way? The phone -- it rang
"There's no Edgar here"
And looking out over the water -seer,
my mother asks "goose or gander?"

Finding G

2007-05-25T18:25:00.001-04:00

In High School, I chummed with 3 friends and had very little to do with any others. I think this was an effort on my part to reject the friends of my older sister, perhaps to stir her up somewhat. My 3 friends were M (Polish), F (Jewish) and C (Armenian). These girls were about a year younger than I was, having caught up to me in the 6th grade. In that grade, the second time around, I lost a half a roomfull of classmates to Junior High, physically located in the High School building, including my friend N. N lived in the last house on Charles Street with her older brother B, her father and grandmother. They had a barn with a loft full of hay, cows, and a bull. My brother Ernie and I used to go there and jump down into the hay, play Uncle Wiggley together in the house. I liked B and he like me too. He would take my side in any scraps, and Ernie would side with N, N and I entered the first grade together, but by the time we were in the 6th grade, she grew away from me, and I had a new friend V, whose father owned a garage next to M's house on Lincoln Street.

Both beautiful girls, N and V would come down to my house, but mostly I think to flirt with my brothers. Not only was I jealous, I was diminished. And when one day they stood peering into the window when I was having a violin lesson with my brother Leo, they became my enemies. I quit the lessons abruptly, must to the dismay of Leo,who quit teaching me altogether after that. The girls were out to get boys, anyway, and I was not. I liked boys, especially the ones in my classroom and I know they liked me, the way they smiled and touched me, in passing -- nothing sensuous, just friendly-like. Especially G. I think most of the boys in high school were a bit on the shy side too, except for W who knew it all, E who always smiled knowingly but kept pretty much to himself, and A who was left alone pretty much because he was going to become a priest (and he did). Yes, I liked the boys but tried not to show it. The shy ones I left alone and avoided the others as I could. I could not avoid S who walked my way. He was a bit more aggressive, but even with his boldness, he would back off from me and my 3 friends, and say, "I was only kidding." And J, who also walked our way, keeping up a non-threatening conversation. I liked J, and I had the feeling he liked me too -- and it was around this time I was thinking: I wonder who I'll end up marrying? But I knew I wasn't ready yet. Of course there were glances and feelings that were sloughed off and frustrations abated somehow or other by re-directing our conversations and activities. Even at the high school prom I danced only with my brothers and Mr. C our teacher, never with classmates. But they danced anyway with non-shy girls who pretty much led them on. And those boys who were more brazen selected girls whom they had dated before or were still dating.

I could hardly wait to graduate, but at graduation I found myself thinking who? And in my mind, choosing someone I'd want to marry. G, I thought, he'd be the one. And I know he liked me more than anyone else. And so we graduated. Said our goodbyes. And where did he go? Where was he headed? I never asked. And thought to myself -- if it's to be, it will be and I don't have to move anything.

G was brought up on a farm. He'd of course be a farmer. Would he go to college? What college, I wondered. What would he study. He was extremely smart in school. But they called him "Farmer B" I didn't like that name but it didn't bother him in the least. So, where are you now, G? Did you graduate from college? Are you married? I picture you, in charge of a huge farm enterprise somewhere, with a very intelligent wife, raising a grand houseful of children -- all happy. Of course they'd be grown up now, having given you grandchildren. And if they turn out to be like their old happy grandfather I'm sure you'd be, the world would benefit.

So where are you, grandfather G? Just let me know, so I can find you, and we'll have a long, long conversation about those happy but awful high school days.

my secret

2007-05-24T15:37:00.001-04:00

I was in the sixth grade, for the second time around. Just a strange turn of events, which I blame on the shallowness of the teacher. My teacher used to sit at her desk, with a hand mirror. We were supposed to think she was occupied with herself -- her eye makeup, her lipstick, even her brilliant fingernails scraping her beautifully white teeth, and even her slender white fingers manipulating a strap and rearranging the fit of her magnificent breasts in her blouse. --and our eyes were supposedly downward on our assignment and not on her.

Anyway, she was the grownup in that classroom, so we weren't, yet. Although in the sixth grade, this year I felt grownup. I thought some of my classmates acted a bit childish, and I did want to fit in, so I started acting like them in some ways, like defying the teacher, not closing the book when told, dropping a pencil, just to disturb an awfully quiet moment. In my own little way, I was going to be ungrownup, just like the others.

Alas, one day, this beautiful woman, our teacher, had half the class march right into the small "book and supply room, where she quizzed us, name by name: Did you use chalk on the road out there? Do you know who did? What does it say? You do know what it says -- nowwe were quizzed, one by one.

You do know what it says-- now, did you write it? Who did? Of course she got no answer from me. It was the end of the school year, what did I care? We were soon to be students at the High School (Junior High was now housed in the High School building.) We were excited about joining the big kids in high school. Really a big excitement for us. But no, it was not going to happen. When we received our report cards for the year, About twenty students learned they would be repeating the sixth grade another year. I was one of these students.

I left for the long walk home, disappointed, but feeling a little bit guilty too. Why did I feel guilty? And I was angry about feeling guilty -- I didn't do anything. Yes, I was angry at the teacher, just as my friends walking with me were angry. By the time I arrived home, there was no anger, no disappointment,. I was grown up enough then. wasn't I, to accept whatever and go on from there?

I arrived home. The feeling of guilt was there. How was I going to tell them I didn't pass, was not going into the seventh grade? I thought perhaps I would just walk in, nonchalantly, and noone would ask. It didn't really matter, did it? Summertime was here. I was certainly ready to forget my problems. and did.

It was August -- Have I grown up during these summer months? No, Richard died. Who am I now? Without Richard?

And everyone came. Charlie was there, Tommy and Lily came home, The dining room table was cleared of lunch and everyone was everywhere. I don't know where I was -- probably sitting on the steps of Eddie's house next door. What was I thinking?

[I'm not done yet -- stay tuned]

2007-05-22T08:11:00.001-04:00

horse and wagon

Truly it's been an honor
for me to learn from you and grown
among so many special ones
who paved the road I traveled, gone
are they, and I awash
with sentimental thoughts, or worse
no thoughts at all. Myself I drag
along the shore
goose or gander throughout the ages
come and go, feathers shorn.
Me? I hear not, see not -- where's the sage
now to rescue me? Blow your horn
I'm not asleep. I am aware

horse and wagon

2007-05-20T18:29:00.000-04:00

Walking along the sidewalk, in an older section of S.Carolina, Carol and I are looking at the mansions, many rooms to accommodate large families and servants (probably slaves then?), large and ostensious porches, brick steps and walkways, gardens we stop to study and sniff, to touch the ornate fences and walls. Now, we see a wagon in front of us, filled with tourists, pulled by two large, lazy horses. Oh well, they have to go so slow -- and the day is so beautiful -- why shouldn't they be lazy? And they clap, clap, clap along the road. And Carol asks, are you with me? She notices the blankness on my face and the lackadaisical reponses to her questions, and says, "you must be tired."

No, not tired. I was somewhere in the West, crossing a prairie in a covered wagon, the horses, were not really clap, clap, clapping, but slap, slap, slapping and the wagon was covered. Two people riding in the front of the wagon, several walking alongside, and they were singing --psalms, I think. And then the rains came down. A lot of scrambling and shouting, and the horses were excited, and a wheel suddenly broke, and there was havoc and I gasped!

You're really tired, Carol said. And I'm sure I looked at her blankly and said, "I'm okay."

Write! right

2007-05-20T10:41:00.001-04:00

Sunday again. The days go by fast. Are they going by me, or with me?

I fall asleep in my chair early in the evening and wake up to go to bed, still early. The routines are, well, routine -- come and go without concerted effort on my part, and the breakfast, an interesting blend of egg and vegetables, red, green, yellow and the color of fried potato --that too! Toasted Carol-made fruit and nut bread, spread with all-fruit jam, and all this after I take my vitamins, red, green, yellow and white that slide dow with no effort at all on my part -- it's the fruit smoothie that first appears at my place that takes them down.

Breakfast over, I sit awhile with my hot cup of tea in a blue mug -- mm! Except to write, don't lift a hand or I should say, dish. Just relax. Look out over the marsh. A large egret just flew up and disappeared behind the tree in the neighbor's yard.

And now to Mass at The Church of the Divinity. Carol will drive.

a walk on the beach

2007-05-19T19:19:00.000-04:00

A walk on Folly Beach this morning, early, before the sun was too strong, before too many people there. Carol, Mike and I. The waves nearly caught me once. I want to close in to see what Carol has discovered out there.-- she walks barefoot so goes further out than I do. I have rubber shoes on, what does it matter that I get my feet wet? Mike has on regular sneakers and is not about to get them soaked. Now, what is she looking at?

The water is warm, she said. I move closer and look down at the round blob in the water. It's about 16 inches across the bottom, which looks like a straw-woven garden hat, the base of a large "gelatin mold" I called it. It was inside that took our attention now and the "mold" was transparent so that we could see there. It took a bit of studying -- and when the tidal wave moved the jellyfish toward me, I ran. Going back, I could see that there was a yellowish substance, lumpy, around the soft inside blob. We are looking for and counting eyes, appendages. We continue our walk.

Carol handed me a rock to look at. Strange looking, seems to have flat shells imbedded in one side.

Soon Carol stopped us to look at what I thought was a turtle shell, seeing the pointy little tail, about 5" long. I found out it was the shell of the largest crab I had ever seen. Carol turned it over so we could see the inside body parts which were moist from the washing of the tidal waves. She lifted the claws. A little girl about l0 came over and listened to Carol describe what we were looking at. Carol flipped the shell over and we looked for eyes, more than two, she said. We found two, then were on our way back.

Looking up, as I walked (not too smart, walking over shells and rocks) I spied in the distance an extremely colorful bird which I studied intently. I moved ahead of Mike and Carol. I continued watching. Not a pelican, and certainly not a hawk... but large, and wings, orange, reddish in the sun, dipping down, up and down again...what can it be? I hear nothing from Mike, nor Carol. They are very quiet behind me. Of course they must know, but I don't ask. We walked closer. There, it has landed. Oh! The man pulled the string to straighten it out, and away again it flew, up, up, down, up.

We crossed over and went up the wooden stairs, heading for our car and home, Mike, Carol and I, still looking at the rock and wondering if they knew all along it was a kite.

clapper rails

2007-05-19T13:28:00.001-04:00

What? Can't get with it this morning. With an itchy nose. Did it get sunburned yesterday while I sat on the docki. listening? Mostly listening to grackles, but I imagined the sounds of young clapper rails in the grasses beside the dock where I sat. I turned slowly peered into the long strands of wet grass, flattened by the water and tangled. Why would even a rail want to nest there? No, I suppose she wouldn't . At least after my body objected, the stiffness had to be relieved and I turned myself around and sat as any normal person would, for awhile. Then my legs had to be up, with support, My hat had to be adjusted down to shield my eyes already with dark glasses on them. My eyes, very sensitive to light, especially after staring for long periods.

And I never saw the mother rail, nor any littles ones, nor the nest for that matter. But I did hear her, loud and clear and I know she was right across the water from me --distinct from the grackle's loud cracking voice, she clapped, and clapped, and clapped. I should have clapped when I heard the concert given by the many birds when I was sitting on the porch the other day. Next time.

One day, when Carol and I were on the dock, we did see a rail, long legs lifting to find a good footing on the edge of the water.

It's very quiet now -- no, listen! . It's the little wren (my favorite), back again. Carolina wren.

Bye, you evasive clapper rail. I'll be back, will you?

answers to my quiz

2007-05-19T08:17:00.000-04:00

1. asparagus
2. lemon pie
3. fried egg
4. peanut butter
5. raspberry
6. jelly beans
7. beef stew (sorry, I had to throw in fish too)
8. shrimp

What Do They Drink?

2007-05-18T17:59:00.000-04:00

The Japanese are
a people humble, shrewd
appear shy, but are not really that,
look at you out of the corner of their eye
would like you to look at them that way
They will bow their head and extend their hand
to greet you, they are gracious and will
invite you to their home for tea.

Their home? Modest, there is no
spread of lawn, or fancy driveways
and walkways -- they have squeezed
a small area without mountain, to
build their modest house. They do not
measure their land in acres.

But their hospitality is unmatched
and their food good and plentiful,
for guests

Rice and fish are their stable foods. They
are great fishermen.

What do they drink in Japan? I asked

They now have foods they mix,
especially for their guests, now
that they have supermarkets
and the women are great cooks.

What do they drink? Someone offers "saki"

Oh yes. The men drink
and the women put up with it. Seldom
do they leave their men. I think
there are few if any divorces in Japan

If someone is faulted, or thinks he has faulted
he will commit suicide to "save face."
A Japanese man will not be humiliated,
and stay around.

But, I asked, what do they drink?

2007-05-17T20:40:00.000-04:00

w a s t e b a s k e t

Wondering this morning what it was
thinking to myself, what a waste
these "treasures" over which we stew
and mine, confusing me, the task
still lying there ahead; ideas I saw
up over my head, every bat
flying helter-skelter while I sat
dipping down, dumbfounded in my seat
nameless people dumped in a basket
how they laugh and tease
me in my coldness, in my sweat
all my clothes now soaking wet
I burn, as in the sun to bask
night creatures, they, so why? I ask
do my photos now they eat?

the first time

2007-05-17T17:14:00.001-04:00

It's the first time I've seen the marsh turn into an ocean, surf tumbling in the wind. That was last night. This morning, it's all gone. Low tide. No ocean, not even the small "river" running by our dock.

It's the first time I've ever seen anyone actually on the marsh, except in a rowboat or cayak. Today a man walked a good distance across the wet grass -- I followed him with binoculars -- he had red pants on but I couldn't tell if he wore boots. I imagined them on his feet. He carried a bucket and a net was swung over his shoulder. Was he going after oysters? Now, there he stands, places his bucket on the floor of the marsh where he was going to -- fish? He threw his net into the shallow water, as the pelicans, 3 of them swooped down, dipped their beaks into the water, up, away, back down, dip, a quick low, swirling flight over the man's head and up into the sky, circling and back down again. It was fun to watch.

But my eye moved over and saw another man walking the same path through the marsh. He was under a red hat. He soon joined the first man, and together they peered into the water, had a discussion, stood pondering for awhile. Soon the man in the red hat, carrying the bucket offered him, went further along the marsh and further out of my sight. Yes, he completely disappeared, but the pelicans could see him and swooped down where I guessed he was, then. I watched the pelicans up, down, up, down and again and back over to where the first man was "fishing" with his net.

Carol just walked out on the dock and snapped a picture. "Too far away," she said and returned to the house. She brought me in out of the noonday sun. I was loving it out there but she said it was too hot.

I found a spot on the porch and with binoculars, looked out again over the marsh. Then is when it flew overhead, It was the first time I had ever seen the GoodYear blimp fly over the marsh. But no great thrill! Give me pelicans anytime, or herons. And a hawk will leave me breathless anytime, but not a Goodyear blimp.

Now, the red hat is moving further away , judging by the gulls now (pelicans having left, flying to distances out of my sight). The first man is now standing knee deep in the shallow water and peering down into it. Not very active in the water or out. No pelicans, a few gulls. Oh, here they come! One, two, three pelicans back again, swooping down, an occasional quick dip into the water, up and over. Are they finding what the fisherman can't find? He apparently doesn't like the pelicans to come too close and tries to scare them with his net, then flings it across the water. What is he after? Crabs probably, Carol said. I think the man is thinking about quitting -- the pelicans aren't, not yet.

The second man (in the red hat) with the first man's bucket, is now moving back to where the first man is standing, without action now. And the pelicans are leaving. He puts the bucket down and the first man comes out of the water. The two are standing there, discussing what? The catch, probably, or no catch. I watch two immobile individuals, with the red hat, with the red pants, until my eyes tire and I put down the binoculars. What do they expect.? Do they think I'm taking their picture?

After a short rest for my eyes, I pick up the binoculars.

What are they finding to talk about? The tide, whether it's worthwhile to wait until it starts to come in? If they waited for dusk, are they safe here? Personally, I think they had better think about getting out of there. How does it go? Time and Tide wait for no man?

A little wren is sitting there on the porch raill post. I move closer. She sings Ooh! That's a bit loud, isn't it? I sat -- still -- and she continued her shrill song -- that for me?

There they go -- the man in the red pants and the man under the red hat. They're headed, homeward, with net and bucket -- any luck? crabs?

my week

2007-05-16T10:23:00.001-04:00

I like SUNDAY. Nobody has to go anywhere. Oh yes, I do have to go to Mass and Mike or Carol have to drive me there (have to! what a harsh, commanding term that is) --they don't think I should get a bicycle). But the rest of the day: Oh, I can do anything I want to. Have I written today? Read? Or maybe I should get on with my photo albums. Today, though, is a day of rest.

MONDAY comes and goes. Now, after breakfast, we hope to start our mornng walk -- should be a nice, cool breeze. If I don't get a sweater, my arms will freeze. Those arms! The only part of me that feels cold with a summer breeze. But that's all right, let's get on our way and listen to the birds along the way, even though I can't look up into the trees, without losing my footing.

When TUESDAY comes along, we have another plan after breakfast. I am not sure what it is so I'll just write until I find out. Easy enough. Just grab my socks, my glasses and my hat and we're off -- oh, oh, the water? Now it's suppertime already and I have to look out at the Marsh. No big birds -- the water is too high now. Maybe tomorrow.

Tomorrow already -- WEDNESDAY. This is the "hump" day I think they call it. After today, we're headed for the wonderful weekend. So what am I going to do today. I will, of course, write, even type my writing -- now, that will use up a good part of the day. It's nice and I think the porch will be a nice place to read. And it is -- but llisten: just like an orchestra practicing for an evening symphony. The oboe strings, now the shuffling of chairs, the drum feathers, symbles, now "C, C, C, C" the instructor calls out, and someone's finger touched D with A flat and it reverberated. And what has happened? Seems, the violinist is upset and the girl at the harp not sure.

THURSDAY came up fast. Breakfast, oh, bacon! Write, let's sit on the porch today and read. First, the walk. Then a shower. Oh, this room. I must clean it up a bit -- what to do with, what? My photos. Will take all the people out of my albums, away from scenery, and put them in a separate album... oh, oh, it's suppertime already. But.

It's already FRIDAY? will definitely sit on the porch today and read. After breakfast. And here I am, settled here with a book, and .. can't get away from the birds. Look, there's that beautiful little wren, singing just to me. I move closer and she doesn't fly away but sings, sings, CHE CHE CHE

SATURDAY is a nice day -- everybody liked to work outside on this day, and fix whatever needs fixing, water the lawn, plant the bush, and away we go -- the day is over before we know it. Oh, no interest in albums, writing, reading -- just look at that marsh -- no, it's more like a large lake. My eyes are getting tired. Oh well.

it seems to me

2007-05-15T18:20:00.000-04:00

that doctors, dentists, electricians, plumbers and who have you, tend to believe that their time, and only theirs, is precious. Maybe there should be a different approach:

Say, the doctor's office: Tell the "girl" that you would like to see the doctor at 2:30 p.m. on Thursday, October 8, or if that is not convenient, then at 1:00 p.m. on Friday, October 9th and that he can call back to confirm the date and time.

Or, the dentist: I need to see you very soon -- how about Friday or Saturday of this week? You can't? Well, that's okay, I'll call someone else. Oh, you can! Oh great -- jot the date down, and I'll see you then.

The plumber: My kitchen sink is leaking, I can't live with this -- can you fix it for me? Oh, that's too far away. How about this afternoon, or tomorrow morning? Oh you can't -- no, never mind. I'm sure I can

The painter: My dining room is all ready for a new paint job. All it needs is a painter and the paint. I have samples of paint that you can look at -- when can you come? Oh I wasn't planning to wait that long. Oh, you have people who work for you? Okay, when can they come? You need how much notice? Well, never mind.get someone else.

Or the furniture store: I was in your store yesterday and I told you I would call today. after I took some measurements at home. Oh, it was the blue leather one, right near the large window... oh, yes I have the details you gave me right here. I'll read them to you. Oh, great! Yes, I can pay for it on delivery -- when will that be? I really don't want to wait that long-- Can't you make it by the end of next week? You can't -- well never mind. No I don't want the sofa. Thank you anyway.

what foods are these?

2007-05-15T17:04:00.000-04:00

l. This is good for you, I think. It grows in soft stalks and is delicious with cheese. A green and yellow, warm dish -- but lift it whole into the mouth. Don't try to cut it. The knife will have nothing to do with it; a struggle with a knife ensues and the food may end up in your lap.

2.It's not so much the base that tasty, it's more the texture of what it made with, and part of this texture is soft to eat and rather tasteless without the flavor of a certain fruit juice.

3. Soft, and your first gentle touch makes it run, yellow into white; and you know it's there even with your eyes shut, because it's that time of day.

4. It's not usually eaten by itself. It's a bit on the unmanageable side if you're not careful. It's soft, gummy with a nice taste. It is sometimes prepared with nuts and eaten with another food for the sake of convenience.

5. This food travels up into your ears. Some like its taste and some don't. It speaks to you and to some it says "yummy. However, some people just hear "oh, sorry!" It requires another type of food to be eaten with it and, even then, its seeds never leave your mouth.

6. If you like sugar, this food will more than satisfy your sweettooth. You can, and probably will, keep eating and eating -- a variety of color. When you've tried them all, you will look for another food, not quite so sweet, which you are tired of by now.

7. This food, tasty and hot, is very good for you. It's a mixture of several delicious foods from the vegetable and herb gardens, and something very special from the farmlands. Sometimes, especially on a camping trip, this is a delicious food to eat outdoors and you substitute what you picked up on the farm, with something of your own doing -- catch of the day, if you're lucky.

8. If you really want something to "tickle the cockles of your heart," try this food: It's a pleasing color, its skin is delicate and easy to remove so that you can right away get to the white meaty stuff that you love to eat.

9. This food is best fried, and even better, burnt a little at the edges. When it's really crisp and hot, there's nothing like it and its taste lingers as long as you permit it to linger. And you will always look ahead to the next time.

the marsh at noon today

2007-05-15T12:28:00.000-04:00

See the men out there fishing?

Looking west from our dock:

people flight

2007-05-15T10:08:00.000-04:00

-Here, look at this. Notice the feet-- well, you can only see one. No toes, sort of tannish, with black strreaks, no, more like wide bands across the upper part. No toes. And the head -- can't see the eyes -- the head is very large and rather rounded, and white. The feathers must be very soft and smooth, the way they blow so much in the wind. Oh, look! He, or I should say she (there's probably a nest nearby, she's been here quite awhile).

There, she moved. Rather tall, huh? Seems she has more appendages -- two I think, with dangling smaller appendages, many of them -- see them swinging as she moves along, rather rapidly -- oh, now I see the other one. It's hard to see much, looking down through the trees like this.

the marsh

2007-05-14T13:00:00.000-04:00

We looked out and saw an ocean-- the marsh was gone. Where are we? Well, it looked like an ocean, the turbulent winds blowing across, encouraging the surf and rearranging it. The channel of the marsh, which runs along just in front of our dock, was undefinable, merging with the marsh's high waters. This was the first time since we arrived in S.Carolina that we had ever seen such an amazing view from the house. And the winds blew -- across our porch and we stared, and stared, and stared.

Just for comparison, here's a picture we took while Margaret was here. It shows how the marsh looks halfway between low and high tide on a normal day:

This Morning

The marsh! Seemed it got a really good scrubbing last night. The wash water has not yet been emptied, giving us back our "channel" by the dock here, like a small river -- I can hear it rippling in the wind. Looking out over our freshly cleaned marsh, there's a rowboat and there is no doubt that the man is fishing -- there are the pelicans, 3 of them, following along -- do they expect oyster scraps, small fish or whatever the man in the boat throws out, or drops? He motored around the bend. The pelicans fly up and over. I've lost them. It's very quiet here, and the marsh is so very, very clean.

Mary and Margaret at the park

2007-05-13T17:43:00.000-04:00

View of the marsh:

Tiny crabs:

Fishing pier and willet:

Can anyone name this fella?

Echos

2007-05-12T10:57:00.001-04:00

Margaret was here from Kississimmee, Florida, visiting for a few days. We enjoyed having her with us and on one of our many car trips with Carol took us into Charleston, where we visited the Museum there. The Museum was unbelievably raucous: Was it my new ear? I was awed at first, when we went in -- it was so large -- the first thing we looked at was the large round tank with fish swimming whirling around and around -- was the tank moving? Was the water whirling around? Carol said it was only the fish moving in a circle in the large tank. That and echos -- what was echoing? Something besides voices. Was it water running? Maybe workmen at the tanks or at other places there? A slight dizziness came over me. We went up an escalator, looked at more fish, some like the bass, the pickerel, (trout?) we have in the river at home, only much larger. And then a turtle with his underside toward the glass while he swam, snakes, a huge rat snake, an octopus which squiggled down from the rocks where he was wedged, with a leg or two and a portion of his head and eyes showig. I especially enjoyed watching him and his legs and his over-abundant head and popping eyes moving here and there. I don't remember having seen an octopus before, although I may have. I am sure my sister Mabel or brother Leo brought me to Boston to the museum, and in later years, I worked in a building next to a new museum at the edge of Boston Harbor. Did the octopus not interest me then? Was he not there? Or hidden behind rocks? Anyway, to get back to S.Carolina and the museum in Charleston. We saw a small tank, seemed not much there, except we spied two eyes peeping out from the dark rocks. Studying the eyes for awhile, we thought -- these are frog's eyes, and immediately imagined the frog and saw him -- this was not rock, it was dark frog! My highlight of the trip. Then we saw otters, moved close through the teenagers and up to where two little guys were pressing their faces against the glass. Then came the otters swimming, then maneuvering up and over a large heavy open circle which was a fat ring of moss, I think. then down into the water -- about five or six of them -- swam and put their noses right against the glass, where the little faces of the boys quickly withdrew with a gasp. This was fun to watch.

About to wander further in the museum, we were approached by an elderly man holding a baby aligator, about 24 or 30 inches long He talked at length about aligators which I won't go into here (even what I regall) except why they eat humans -- thinking they are the food because humans bring food and the aligator thinks (he thinks?) they are part of the food, there for them. They have no taste buds but double teeth, and when one breaks or rots, the inside tooth comes down and replaces the missing one. The man holding the aligator firmly but gently at the neck, with his hand, lets us feel the scales of the back and tail, and the stomach of the baby aligator. This was interesting, but at that point, I was a bit queasy, and somewhat dizzy. We asked for a restroom and one of the workmen dropped his tools, left his cart and walked us partway to a restroom. Timely! I lost my lunch. The echos were almost maddening -- voices, water running, and I don't know what else but it was overwhelming. Stayed with me several days -- nausea, dizziness -- the fish swimming round and round.

Last night, Carol, Mike, Margaret and I went to a neighbors meeting and it was very interesting and enjoyable; I was pleased I could hear the speaker at the meeting and the questions and answers, even chat a bit afterwards with neighbors I was meeting for the first time, until the room became raucus with the many voices and echos. The echos! Reeling, my stomach jerking -- I was again in the vast museum, fish swimming round and round..

family photos

2007-05-12T09:10:00.000-04:00

My parents:

My family:

My brother Eddie:

Eddie with his wife, Celia, and his two sons, Donald and Jimmy:

achoo!

2007-05-09T19:48:00.000-04:00

To all of you who haven't heard from me lately, achoo!

The weather here has been beautiful with cool evenings and a lot of breezes from the marsh. And the marsh is turbulent like an ocean, achoo!

Margaret is here from Kissimmee, Florida for a few days.

Today we went to the aquarium, achoo! We saw an octopus which I had never seen before except in a picture. It was a young octopus. It was fascinating. Then we saw eels and snakes and a beautiful little frog. We couldn't make him out at first until we discovered his eyes and then we found his whole body. Achoo! What we really enjoyed were the otters. A man was out there feeding them and several of them came out and did a few acrobats and dived into the water. They were fascinating to watch, came right up close to the glass. A couple of little boys had their faces at the glass and they pulled them back suddenly when the otter came kissing them. One of the attendants, an elderly man, brought a baby alligator over, holding him by the throat, told us about the alligator's hollow teeth that had other teeth inside of them. When an alligator loses a tooth, he uses the other one -- it grows down. He has no taste buds but when he sees people coming toward him, people who probably have fed him, he would think that the people were the food. That's why people got eaten. He let me feel the scales on the alligator. Achoo!

I took a little Aricept to help my memory and I don't take it any more after the first pill because I think I'm allergic to it.

Margaret, Carol, and Mike say hello to all. Love, Mary

Sunday

2007-05-06T16:49:00.001-04:00

It's Sunday afternoon. Carol suggested I go out on the dock and sit awhile -- I'm a bit restless and onery today. Been thinking of the house in Medway and even after getting away from it and going to Mass, I was still unable to concentrate on anything else. I walked a bit up and down the driveway but it didn't help. The dock helped, I think. Sitting there by myself in the warm sun and cool, I waited for the Clapper Rail to come out of the maize of marsh pilings along the rising channel. She screeches and rails and sometimes sounds like the bird she is, sometimes clucks like a chicken. She is, yes, very loud, but also very shy.

I didn't see the Rail today, but I did see her one day when she stepped out of the marsh and walked toward the water -- only for a second, because she quickly turned and disappeared into the brush. I think she looked like a small chicken but her extremely long yellow beak tell you she's not. Her legs are long and yellow, big chicken-like feet move very quickly. She is rather brownish, somewhat striped and her round, brownish eyes are set in a gray head.

While I sat there on the dock, two pelicans flew overhead, then a couple of egrets flew over. One dipped quickly down into the water, circled and then dipped down again, this time disappearing into the Marsh. I saw two pelicans fly overhead, very close. I then saw a small white bird with a black head fly over, dip into the channel's water, fly up, circle and then dip again -- just as the egrets did. I learned this bird was a forster tern (I think I got that right).

It was tempting for me to stay on the dock but if I had my hat like a sail would have taken me, windblown, along the channel.

Carol came out then and as we left the dock, two hawks circled overhead, frustrating the little birds in the sky over our heads.

I hear

2007-05-05T19:39:00.001-04:00

I hear music
I hear my own voice
I hear there's a sale at
I hear you live near here
I hear ringing in my ears
I hear carolers out there
I hear but don't always listen
I hear bacon frying
I hear the bird but can't identify it
I hear water running
I hear noises down there
I hear it's a great place to eat
I hear bells chiming
I hear you're involved in
I hear it's crowded and noisy
I hear better now, with the hearing aid
I hear he's a terrific cook
I hear nothing -- what is it?
I hear she's taking piano lessons
I hear the kids outside
I hear it's not all it cracked up to be
I hear they make them fresh
I hear the choir, but
I hear cats out there
I hear you made it yourself
I hear the words but they don't make sense
I hear it was just a lot of nonsense
I hear violins
I hear my own voice
I hear someone who sounds familiar
I hear nothing
I hear you like your new job
I hear you were there
I hear you have a new car
I hear the wind
I hear you have a new job
I hear it isn't worth it
I hear several voices
I hear the speaker well but
I hear it isn't worth it
I hear she bought a house there
I hear there's a concert tonight
I hear but I don't believe what
I hear
I hear them all too clearly
I hear what you're saying, but
I hear something
I hear she's no longer there
I hear it's not what it's cracked up to be
I hear you had an exciting day here
I hear a cardinal
I hear the rattling of dishes
I hear something drop
I hear a piece of silver hit
I hear silence in the kitchen, and then
I hear a banging and
I hear rattling of dishes, silver?
I hear a cabinet door shut
I hear a lot of noise
I hear something drop against something
I hear a pan echo in the sink
I hear metal touching metal
I hear the pen writing
I hear myself move in the chair
I hear the clunk of the foot of the chair
I hear my breathing

how would you like it?

2007-05-04T19:14:00.001-04:00

How would you like it if someone pulled
on your hair and removed your warm
covering and said "oh, you're not ready yet"
and just when you're trying to get comfortable
again, having to fight off those fat white
creatures that were just disturbed and now
blame you? And how would you like it if a
tractor's noise kept you awake all day and
then came in deep enough to pick you up
and toss you helter-skelter into a bed of briars,
against a big fat watermelon or a wire fence,
or even not that far but just out in the open,
in the burning hot sun that eventually makes
you wrinkled and worthless? And think of this,
if you think my life is a bowl of mashed
potatoes -- oh, what am I saying? -- That's
another thing, being mashed. Or how would
you like it if someone pulled you from a
oven, where you are trying to get warm and
comfortable, like under the ground, and told
by some potato head (oh,oh!) , "you're just perfect"
and when you are lifted out you feel so imperfect?
And another thing:How about someone nice,
or at least you thought at first, comes toward you with
a bread knife and you look around and see
no bread -- what can you expect? After all,
you're just a potato!

one sentence

2007-05-04T17:58:00.001-04:00

Outside I found myself because the day was
so perfect but what I wanted to do was
out of the question since I no longer drive
and besides I don't even have a car anymore,
but my choices of things to do while I was out
on such a beautiful morning were unlimited,
making me turn to something beside drivingn
somewhere, spending money on something
I really didn't need, or even or something I did
need but not just now and spending money
nonetheless and in addition wasting good time
that could be spent on other things like
getting the gardens raked up and the soil
there readied for planting so that the yard
would look beautiful the way it used to look
when Tommy and Lily brought the plants
now in the greenhouse after having been
earlier brought up from the cellar where they
had been sleeping all winter and now about
ready for the gardens which are close to the
patio and house and which my mother enjoyed
and which never seemed to be without a
variety of color, adding to the morning glories,
the climatis, and the colorful blossoms of our
Japanese Cherry tree and Dogwoods, and the
green lawn which Tommy and later Carl kept
mowed and nourished, or if I chose, I could still
get out and wield it against those small trunks
of the unseemly bushes have died but where the
roots are still deep in the ground and beyond my
feeble strength and where they make an unseemly
border between my yard and that of my close
neighbor and cousin who has never complained
being the nice person she is -- or if I feel so
inclined, I could always sweep out the "bungalow"
or with the large broom, give the garage a good
sweeping.

2007-05-04T08:29:00.000-04:00

Great Blue Heron

There she was in the debris of grasses piled up on the edge of the Marsh's channel, near our house in South Carolina. Her long yellow beak pointing the way, she high-stepped toward the almost dry channel, lifting one yellowish leg after the other so as not to get entangled in the mixed up grasses. She stopped and started to preen, her beak becoming almost lost in her greenish feathers and she looked no more like the bird she was, than an undefinable work of art, and I was no longer looking at the Great Blue Heron.

Later in the evening, she was preening atop the green post on our dock, very close. Standing on one leg, beak, almost invisible again, busy inside with her feathers. I watched and watched, with binoculars. Again, standing on one leg, she lost her beak and the other leg, and again became a sculpture --still as the post she stood on.

2007-05-03T13:15:00.001-04:00

Things I never tire of

A soft breeze in the summer
Rain falling, anytime
Birds singing, especially in spring
Ducks on the river, without Canada geese
Poetry (not especially Irish or Scotch)
Crackers and peanut butter
Trees --all of them
Silence
Chimes if far enough away
Water to drink, or just water
Chocolate

Things I do tire of

Conversation I can't hear (I can now!)
My own voice running endlessly
My own voice with a frog in my throat
Doves and their constant cooing
Stopped traffic and no red light visible
Dressing and undressing, especially shoes
Undated photos and unrecognized people in photos
Computer's reaction to my wrong choice
Speakers who look into their own writing instead of up
Questions I don't know the answer to
Puzzles that trick me

2007-05-03T11:37:00.000-04:00

June and Love

You told me love was in the air
I looked at you, then asked you "where?"
It's all around, just look and see
There's someone for you someone for me

A slip of a boy, you talked so free
to a slip of a girl behind a tree
You talked, I listened, shy, I heard
My heart picked up your every word

Someone nearby will hold you dear
You'll find him soon -- he's very near
"How will I know his love is real?
"How can I tell him what I feel?"

I saw him coming all the while
Open your heart, he said, and smile
"How do you know he'll be here soon?
I have this feeling of love. It's June

Sunday

2007-05-01T19:52:00.000-04:00

There he is, my father, in his white shirt, nicely pressed pants, standing beside my mother who is seated, her best dress on, and smiling. He's smiling too, under his soft hat. They are photo'd against the not-yet picture window of the kitchen, that reflects a lot of shrubbery. I cannot make out from here just what kind of bushes are there, and a little bird is sitting on a stalk of some kind. But the photo is black and white, so I'm missing a lot.

And there is another window and I believe morning glories, her favorite flower, are climbing up and over and reflected in the window, and I wish I could identify the heavy foliage here which of course is black in the photo. I do believe it is a reflection of the old apple tree which grew at the corner of the garage, and which has long since been cut down to make way for the white dogwood.

I see what appears to be steps in the background too, roughly laid. Was there a door there once, or did the steps lead to a screened-in porch, now only a cement floor and the ramp made to accommodate my mother's wheelchair. Of course this was long before the photo -- you note that she is sitting in a kitchen chair. I don't think there were lawn chairs in our yard then. Well, maybe.

It does appear to be Sunday. And they both look happy.

the marsh

2007-04-30T10:03:00.001-04:00

It's quiet on the marsh this morning. Well, it's always quiet there when I get up. Where are they? The egret, the herons, the ibis? I know the Great Blue is somewhere close -- didn't we see this bird out there, as we came home the other day?The tide was low then. So they can't blame it on low tide. Actually, I would think low tide would be better for them -- plenty of food in plain sight. Oh, oh! Birds don't use that term, do they? Their sight is far from "plain." Then what is it? Don't like to get their feet entangled in the dry grass, maybe? It doesn't look that dry to me -- I'll bet we couldn't walk there, on those seemingly waterless patches of grass. Grass? Just try mowing it, out there. And it's not even green -- it's brown. Anyway, out there, just waiting -- are the low waters of the marsh (oh, is that what you call it?) Does "marsh" include the surrounding water? Oh, I'm so mixed up. Haven't been on the marsh long enough.

ducks

2007-04-29T12:39:00.000-04:00

The ducks on the river are small and brown -- about 18 of them -- I counted them.

Sh! What a sight! Oh, there's a larger one, a mallard with his green collar -- and a very large white duck slightly further down. They are very quiet. Some of them are double ducks, mirrored in the smooth water, and all except probably one, can easily be captured in one click of my camera.

The sun is in the West -- just perfect! I move easily toward the river, behind bushes, careful not to let them see or hear me. Okay, now I lift my camera showly and peak out around the bushes. At once, a disturbing fluttering of wings -- they are disturbed. Up and away they go -- I snap, quickly.

Now I feel bad at having spoiled their Sunday. I hope they'll come back. The white one is still there, looking back over her back, and probably at me.

And this is just a guess on my part

2007-04-28T20:05:00.000-04:00

As a child:

EDDIE: Lots of energy, moving, disappearing, discovering, devilish and smiling (looking for reaction (of his mother, and particularly of his younger brother Leo)

LEO: Calm, attentive, less active than Eddie. A listener, curious, alert

TOMMY: After early months of polio --Quiet, seeking a hand, reinforcement, easy going, passive, curious

JIMMY; After early months of polio -- whiny, listless, interested, busy and occasionally a huge smile

THELMA: Not calm, but restless, anxious, busy, provocative, always looking for new experiences. Looked to her father for calming and affection

CHARLIE: Seemingly quiet. But inside? Always wanting more new experiences, to learn things. Listened attentively. Easily lured into trouble

LILY: A beauty. Quietly seeking attention. Watching intently. A bit of jealousy Very close to her mother.

JOE: Energetic, fast-moving, playful, unpredictable, eager, lovable

Sorry -- more later.

morning mind

2007-04-28T16:56:00.000-04:00

Don't know what I was thinking last night, but something was on my mind when I awoke this morning and it's still with me -- Mind, speak to me! I am at a standstill. Blank! Nothing? No, I don't believe that I just wrote. The mind (even mine) can never be nothing, can it? If that is the situation here, then -- I am lost! Come on, brain, give me a clue -- what were you saying? Something about crossing the ice and walking in the woods on Thanksgiving morning, a very long walk with my brothers, while my sisters always had to stay behind in the kitchen, helping my mother prepare for Thanksgiving dinner. I have a feeling the boys took me and Richard and Ernie with them to get us out of the way in the kitchen. I suspect that is why my sisters all learned to cook, and why I didn't.

my mother

2007-04-27T18:32:00.000-04:00

If I Had Wings

2007-04-26T08:44:00.001-04:00

Walking along the beach, watching the irregular surf roll in under our feet, I watched 3 little Sanderlings, their slender little legs taking them just a fraction beyond the swift oncoming wave. I thought, I wish I could move that fast. Once, I believe I even ran to escape the fast rolling of the water. My feet and legs were always soaked, and sometimes even the edge of my culottes. If I had wings! But wait! Those little Sanderlings have wings -- they can fly, why don't they?

I continued to watch those tiny little, swift-moving legs, and then the Gulls. Laughing Gulls on the dry sand. Oh there goes one, into the water. We've seen them before, they too use their legs to escape getting their wings wet. Except this one. I said to myself: He's not as fast as the Sanderling -- he'll never make it. And at once the Gull lifted its wings -- up and over he went, in a second, laughing his head off. Oh, if I had wings!

2007-04-24T10:54:00.000-04:00

Squirrel

Always there, when I look out over the kitchen sink in the morning, hanging there upside down on the small birdfeeder, swinging as she eats the thistlefeed put out there for the finches. When she hears me, she scampers over and up on the "Bungalow" roof where she sits and watches the window. She knows I'm there, and that the window will open soon.

I walk away. When I return, there she is. This time, on the ground feeding on the suet cage that was hanging on the same line, for the woodpeckers. I slide the sink hose out the window, already open just enough, and squirt -- she's up and on the roof before the water even hits her.

Out the back door, now, I pick up the suet cage and hang it unskilfully on the line ranging across from the Bungalow to the House. The line is high and I am short, so I really have to work at it so I get it back on the line somehow or other and go back into the house. I have work to do, squirrel -- stay off the feeder.

2007-04-23T19:58:00.000-04:00

I Never Got Up Smiling

When I came downstairs in the morning,
my mother would greet me with
"Good morning, Mary Sunshine"
Did I not get enough sleep?
Was someone's foot in my face all night?

We had a "Girl's Room" and a
"Boy's Room" upstairs and slept
3 or 4 in each bed. My sisters
used to hug one another because
there was nowhere else
to put their arms. They knew
where to put their feet --
generally, a foot in my face!
I do remember pushing feet off my face.

Richard was the youngest. I can't
seem to remember Richard --
did they put him in the Boy's room?
Or let him fall asleep on my mother's
and father's bed, and move him later?

Ernie (very young) did sleep in the
Girl's Room, across the foot of one bed
and I slept across the foot of the other.

Ernie and I were usually sent off
to bed before the others. One
evening he was already in bed
when I went into the room.
He put his finger to his mouth,
"Sh! he said, "listen!"
I can't remember what we were
listening for, but I would guess we
heard someone come into the house,
like Mabel, and we were curious.

I remember there were no chairs
in this bedroom. Two beds.
Not the two beds now in there. Lily bought
the twin beds, with the bedsprings
and the mattresses, for my mother
in later years, when only she
and Lily slept there. Our beds
were complete with a spring and a
thin mattress, with sheets and a
blanket or two -- maybe someone's coat
in the wintertime.

What did we wear?
Maybe we slept in our underwear?
Maybe the older ones had shirts?
Mabel had a nightgown.
Thelma and Lily had pajamas, I think.

No heat upstairs in winter.
Warm in summer. The older boys
sometimes slept outside on the lawn,
with old Indian blankets
(or army blankets later).

We never came down to breakfast
without being fully dressed, complete
with shoes -- well, maybe
summertime called for bare feet,
but I don't remember eating
breakfast with bare feet. Perhaps
my father made us put on shoes.

All I remember here is that
we were given a good morning and
a bowl of hot oatmeal with bran
and sometimes raisins, and in the
summertime, cornflakes, maybe with
blueberries -- or we liked shredded
wheat because of its shape,
and there was always something to read
and games and pictures on the packages.
On some, a prize -- some small thing --
made of tin.

2007-04-22T19:26:00.000-04:00

Television

When did we get our first TV set? I can't remember, but I do know someone bought it for my mother. When? After my father died. Who was living at home? Get back to those questions.

I remember the television was turned on only after supper, for my mother while we (Lily and I, and perhaps Charlie) cleaned up and did the dishes. She would watch the news for a little while, then someone would switch on an early show for her, probably Leave it to Beaver, My Three Sons, I Love Lucy, or perhaps Major Bowes Amateur Show with Ed Sullivan. There was always something to watch and usually we would watch too, after the kitchen was cleaned up, and usually if we had a project to work on, or some ironing to do, or maybe sewing, we'd work that in somehow, to keep her company while she watched her favorites, and Archie Bunker was definitely not one of her favorites. She sometimes watched Little House on the Prairie with John and Murder She Wrote with Jessica later on in the evening.

Before TV, my mother used to listen to the radio shows, like Amos & Andy, and The Newlyweds with Jackie Gleason and Art Carney. And we would use that time in our own games unless she wanted to play Chinese Checkers; she liked cribbage but after my father died, she had no one to play with.

After my mother died, we found ourselves watching the shows she liked but very often did not watch until Murder She Wrote came on but sometimes, after the news, we waited until Alfred Hitchcock's threatening music or we'd look for Miss Marple in an English mystery show. Sometimes after my mother died, we rather lost interest in those repeated shows that she enjoyed so much. And very often, after the news, we'd spend the evening having a game with world countries and capitals, lakes, rivers, in the U.S. or perhaps just words. Tommy, Charlie, Lily and I used to spend hours at this type of thing and when Charlie was not at home, the three of us continued.

2007-04-22T11:47:00.001-04:00

Here's Ollie

There you are, curled up and comfy in your little round bed. You are older, now and although you have occasionally slunk around the yard and almost approached me for a friendly pat, you didn't and I was sad. But then, you did catch me frolicking about the yard with the new cat, Nosy. Well, nosy started it, and it was every time I went out to the yard, I just had to respond and romp around with her. I really shouldn't blame you, Ollie.

At Christmastime when Ollie you started to come into my house, in the kitchen, you would let me scratch your golden head, and then, one day you went directly in and not to get entangled in Christmas lights, or the many newspaper pages everywhere, you immediately found our stairs and sat on them, watching our every move. This was the beginning of snapping your picture. You were very cooperative. And one day, you discovered Miriam's warm lap, where she would coddle you and tell you (as if I hadn't told you enough times) how lovely you were, scratch behind your ear, move her fingers across your fluffy back.

Ollie, Ollie -- what a golden beauty you were -- oh, you are! you are! Soft, yellow body, expressive eyes, so familiar with this old house now, how you wandered from porch to living room, and even upstairs. Do you remember the time you went into the attic? Did you get lost?

I first used to scratch behind your ear and enjoy the touch of your fluffy back when you managed to slip into the house somehow with your family, my very dear neighbors, and if I sat down, you would be on my lap, and would purr and purr and I would become SO LAZY, with you. When you would hear the door open and Carl or Denise came in to bring you home, you would run and hide, and we'd all track you down -- it wasn't easy.

Sometimes you would sit on the stairs, just watching, as we scurry about the house, Anyway, one day you had gone upstairs and I opened the attic door for you, as usual you disappeared into the attic. I don't think there were any mice there, but maybe you did, because you stayed in there a long, long time. There was a small opening in the floor of the attic, a cat could with its curiosity easily sllip through it. That was my thought then, and I called to you "Ollie, Ollie, here, Ollie," but no response, not even a slight purr. I became more concerned and rushed downstairs, across the living room, the dining room, the kitchen, stopping at the stairs to the cellar. What would I find there? I didn't even want to imagine what I'd find. I was the "scaredy cat"!

Coward that I am, I went after Denise. and there you were, curled up as comfy as one cat could be, in your little round bed. Your eyes looked at me -- I don't know what you were thinking.

2007-04-21T20:33:00.000-04:00

More Rocks

I love rocks — everybody I know knows that
Rocks in my garden, rocks in the Park
rocks in the road, rocks to sit on
rocks the cradle, rock to throw
rocks back and forth and rocks to know
Oh yes, let's not forget rocks in the head

My brothers, Tommy and Charlie, know
the rocks, especially those that are a threat
to the canoe. As my tan-backed brothers
paddle our long, green canoe up the channel
of the Charles River toward Caryville (bet you
never heard of that town!) there are many,
many rocks under water, but the paddlers
skillfully turn this way and that, avoiding the
threats to the tender and unknowing canoe

And if you are not in the canoe, but happen
to be standing on shore, just look across the
River's channel to the woods and just at the edge
you will see a large rock that I have known since
I was one of those kids who wore an undershirt,
sewn in the crotch — a makeshift bathingsuit to
wear when five or six of us piled into the canoe and
weighed it down to where only its rims showed
above water.

Back to rocks: If you who are standing there on
shore would look down the channel toward
one of the river's dams, right in the middle of
the channel is another large old rock, the
favorite of the Great Blue Heron.

2007-04-19T20:05:00.000-04:00

Rocks

Rocks in the river -- look out for that one. I love this rock, it looks like a dog sitting there and as our canoe comes around the bend, I look for the "dog," and then I know we're close to the old swimming hole. We can see the high-tension bridge going over the Franklin side of the river, and we know that further on there are the high-tension wires, the blueberry bushes, and the great big rock to sit on and talk with my brother Charlie while I muster up courage to go into the water with the turtles, the snakes, and the bloodsuckers.

2007-04-17T11:10:00.001-04:00

Uncle Tom

His station wagon pulled
to a stop in our driveway
that morning.
"Who can that be?" my mother
asked nobody in particular.

A man, dressed casually and
under a soft hat, looked
around and just stood there.

"It's Tom," my mother said,
"It's your Uncle Tom,"
and started for the door.
Of course, we reached
the door first.

I remember the last time
Uncle Tom visited with us.
I remember the times he would
dump out a box on the dining room table.
Colored paper, erasers, paper clips,
rubber bands, yellow, blue and white
cards and I had never before seen such
an array of pencils, except in school.

My uncle Tom was a printer
My gift the last time —
a small lead plate, reading:
“MARY ELIZABETH JONES.”

This morning,
his one glass eye stopped us.
Even his smile, as my mother
approached and he gave her
a big hug, didn't move us closer.

Reaching into his wagon,
he came out with two oranges
placed them in each of our hands,
"Here," he said, "for you —
all the way from my trees
in Florida.

"Where's Joe?" he asked.
And before anyone answered,
his head in and out of his wagon again:
"This is for him."

The last time he was here,
Joe asked him if he could
drive his wagon.
"Oh no, this old pal of mine
has to take me all the way
back to your Aunt Bessie,
bless her."

2007-04-17T06:26:00.001-04:00

The Wind and the Rain

At first a gentle breeze,
then the rains came down
"Let's clean things up,"
the rain said and the breeze
became violently agreeable

The wind picked up the brush
And scrubbed the houses first
ripped off fllimsy insulation
flinging it over the yards and
on the road, now becoming a
fast-moving river.

Trash barrels and their covers
floated by the window, as I
watched. Birds were not afraid.
The leaning and swaying branches
gave them safe shelter, though
maybe a bit rocky -- but the tree
wasn't going anyplace and they knew it.

Through, they tossed the brush into
the rushing water, and I mean brush!
Lots of it.

2007-04-15T16:31:00.001-04:00

Rondel

I nodded, then lifted my head.
Carol was with me -- we were walking.
My feet were in shadow, moving like lead.
"Head up." I heard her talking.

"Look at that tree, one flower stalking.
Look up there, we're hawking."
I nodded, then lifted my head.

A beautiful hawk, wings spread
flat out, graceful wings
like a plane sweeping
down. "Look up," she said.
I nodded, then lifted my head.

2007-04-14T14:31:00.000-04:00

"Put That One in Your Hat!"

My father's comment
when we gave excuses like
"the cat came in and ate it up"
"Lily tipped and spilled my cup"

"I'll do it" "Ashes need a real good shaking"
Ernie looks, "I'll get right to it
I'm busy now but later on
you can be sure that I will do it"

Now Esther said in leaving
"just let those dishes stack
I'm going out, just a little while
you know I'll be right back"

My father: "Put that one in your hat!"

My mother in her later days
when ever she had doubt
picked up the phrase
herself, and often it came out

Getting tired of needles
the poking here and there
they'd tell her, gently, "it won't hurt"
and she would show them where

It hurt, told my sister Lily
"give me the needle, you will see
I can do it – don't be silly
Give the needle back to me"

When she was told that in her bed
she couldn't hold the cup
of milk, "put that one in your hat," she said
and proceeded to drink it up.

My father: "Where's my hat?
I left it right here," he said
My mother: "Put that one in your hat.
You left it on the bed"

2007-04-13T12:52:00.001-04:00

The Wind

The water's crazy
it doesn't know where to go
crows and swallows flying
frantically overhead

The trees bend, reluctant
to change their position,
their branches stretch way down
to kiss the shivering grass

I walk down toward the water
the wind and squirrels rearrange
the lawn's brown leaves

The small strip of marsh
(when the river is low)
has sunken -- disappeared
Once, a haven for the birds,
and feeding spot for the Canada geese
is diminished -- no more lunch

I walk up to the yard
A barrel, left for the trashmen
rolls over -- it's empty
The lid rolls down the street
I go after it but it's going too fast

The chimes are ringing
as if some event is about to happen
and a birdfeeder swings and falls
A squirrel scampers up,
guiltily, but he didn't do it --
the wind did

2007-04-12T12:24:00.001-04:00

My Fault, My Most Grievous Fault

Didn't want to leave her
but she said it was all right
Not sure, I moved her wheelchair
up against the stairwall, tight

Mass at 9 I told her
"Go" she said "don't be late"
and so I went but reluctantly
wanting, most, to wait

She told me not to worry
"they'll be coming right along"
(Tommy, Lily) "they'll be here
"nothing will go wrong"

Coming home, I saw out front
The ambulance, flashing light
Told me nothing, knew at once
that things were not all right

The medics told me, right out flat
she fell and hit her head
"How could you leave her alone like that?"
Didn't hear what else they said

my mother in the mud

2007-04-12T08:20:00.000-04:00

Two of us were batting the winged ball back and forth across the net. The others were there too, surveying flowers and plants, determining just when they were due to come up.

My mother was watching the game, sometimes glancing over the river's channel, expecting ducks or geese to float along on the water. She was happy, just sitting there in her wheelchair -- at least we thought so.

No sounds -- a few voices -- a putt, putt, putt and then a scream, and a splash -- or rather a splush --

And wheelchair and my mother down in the muddy low waters -- more mud than water -- sinking down until her face was covered -- and all of us, suddenly aware that she had been sitting there alone -- who left her?

Up they tugged at the chair and my mother, managed to separate them and bring my mother up out of the much, face entirely of mud and unrecognizable, whisked her up to the house, cleaned her up, and all of us standing around wordless, my mother smiled -- that was funny, she said.

my morning

2007-04-11T08:42:00.000-04:00

Waking Up in a New Bed

Can't remember buying this bed
my walls are blue, not papered
the lights are not where they usually are
and the bathroom has come upstairs

I look out the window
where did these new blinds come from --
Chris or Carl must have put them
up when I was wasn't looking

And the river has gone down --
no -- it's spread out all over the place --
looks like a big marsh
Where are the geese --
the pine trees?

2007-04-10T09:51:00.001-04:00

Catching Redbugs

What if we were
sent down to the river to play
because there was a bed
of hot mortar up near the house
and our sand pile where we left
our make-shift trucks and roads

The river was fun too
We quickly found our jars and ran
to the river's edge, or the wharf

Flat on our stomachs, an arm
stretched own into the water
to catch what? a redbug, must be
a million of them, clinging
to a watery vine. Or
a lucky bug! Really felt lucky
to catch one of these
fast swimmers, or maybe
the hand will be lucky this time

And, if only we could catch
those busy little swift-darting minnows
or pollywogs -- a black circle
must be a hundred pollywogs

We filled our jars with the redbugs
Buried one or two lucky bugs
maybe -- not for all of us
who wanted to see them darting
back and forth among the red dots
and slipped one or two in
with the redbugs

2007-04-09T12:17:00.000-04:00

Now I remember

that I ate all that chocolate
that Carol gave me in the car
that the day was hot
that the Hershey bar was no longer a bar
that most of it was a messy wrapper
that I swam in the Pacific
that day it rained, after Mass
that Carol!! She had already had her swim
that didn't matter, we went anyway. We noticed
that my fingers didn't turn white, the first time
that it happened (or didn't happen) and I notice
that my sandles are not where I left them
that it's mornng already -- breakfast in S.Carolina
that N. Carolina and Virginia are not down anymore
that they're up --and this is not Hawaii but
that experience is still with me, I think
that we counted 102 stone steps down, or up,
that doesn't matter. We climbed both ways
that I do remember
that there was at the bottom water
that bubbled furiously over rocks
that tempted me, but I could not go there
that day (or any day, they told me)
that was because they didn't want to lose
that old aunt, those memories
that she had of family popping up

2007-04-08T15:15:00.000-04:00

Easter Saturday

It was fun for me because
we could talk — it was a long walk to St. Joseph's church
in the deep snow. Even the wind fierce enough
to blow it into our already freezing faces . . .
my own well protected by someone's arm

. . . and because
it was neat holding the hand of my brother
or sister, dragging my feet and making traces
of one kind or another — doing no harm

They would remember
no hats, and no gloves if they were
left back in the yard beside a new snowman,
and long-underwear legs and shoes lined with newspaper
for warmth

I remember

Reaching St. Joseph's church, with its
steepletower, high up. And now it is gone.
I don't remember its chiming but the huge bell,
cracked, now sits on the lawn

Into the church, we stumbled and piled
and inside the little curtained room
each of us confessed and was blessed
by the priest . . . "bless you, child"

My brothers and sisters
would remember
returning home blues:

My father:
"Come on now, where're your shoes,
line them up, get them
polished for tomorrow, Mass at 9
find your catechisms, rosaries? — here, borrow mine"

And my mother,
Exhausted, with all of her cares
ironing 4 or 5, or 6 white shirts,
hanging them on the backs of chairs
"Lily — find your locket"
freshly ironed white handkerchiefs
"here, put this in your pocket"

2007-04-07T11:30:00.000-04:00

Family Tree

Finally, my photo albums are here
boxes and boxes, albums, loose
photos, envelopes of photos and
my bedroom here is beginning
to look like my whole house in
Medway.

But I'm in South Carolina now
and a whole new me -- complete
with haircut and all, and trying
to write every day
A poem, at least that's what
Carol calls them

small containers of old undated
photos, interesting but unrecognized
Perhaps at one point in my
shuffling, the names and dates
will be revealed by association.
but having been schooled
in rhyme. Well, old habits
you know, we'll see

Back to photos and family tree
someone's got to do it
and it may as well be me
why not, since I am the last
of 14. I plan to get right to it
l have already printed out
births and deaths but that is
not enough
get busy, Mary, you'll get through it
You have all the stuff.

2007-04-06T17:19:00.001-04:00

My Mother’s Bread

Plump, a lump, out of the large
bucket, must have been heavy,
with the mixer attached to the cover
another lump, plump
into the bread pan — six or 8 of them
lined up on the table
while we watched, anticipating
the last lump
when my mother dropped a piece of butter
in the pan on the stove, then scooped
and shaped little portions of dough in her hands
dropped them one by one into the
frying pan, now sizzling —
that little piece of fried dough, with
butter melting on the sides
was worth all the waiting
when we let the aroma drift up
into our anxious little noses
before we dared take a bite.

My mother slipped a towel over
her pans of bread, for them to rest and rise.
We were not interested anymore
The baking the next day brought
us back into the kitchen — the aroma
was a whole other story.

2007-04-06T10:52:00.001-04:00

Planting

Standing by the window
coffee cup in hand
my mind begins to wander
and I think: my house, my land

Now outside the doorway
considering, at ease
what special fun-like chores
to do -- I'll work on, as I please

I choose to do a garden
and go for rake and hoe
Here I'll plant some pansies
and arrange them in a row

I'll plant some peonies over here
and here, some iris tall
Along the driveway, I'll have tulips
that we planted in the fall

Already tired -- now that's enough
I'll be out again, I have a hunch
So clean the garage -- get rid of stuff
And then I'll get some lunch

2007-04-06T10:24:00.000-04:00

Cold Fingers

"Run them under cold water"
My mother said, "and the white
will go away"
And it probably would have,
had I the patience, but the red
didn't come back
I want to go back on the ice
My toes are cold
but noone is suggesting
I should run my toes under cold water
and what about my head?
Cold and probably
white all over but
I want to go back on the ice
My skates are
already untied
and off
my hat and gloves off
now someone is pulling
my sweater off
Very unhappy
I want to go back on the ice
Fingers still white
but my mother has hot cocoa
for my not-white lips
Touching the cup,
my fingers warm
and then I drink it up
happy, unhappy
I want to go back on the ice

2007-04-06T08:35:00.000-04:00

To my very dear friends on Charles Street, and elsewhere in Medway, and to my nieces and nephews wherever they may be:

A VERY HAPPY EASTER COMING FROM SOUTH CAROLINA

With love, Mary

2007-04-04T15:46:00.000-04:00

Morning

It's morning. I come downstairs
Mike's here -- go directly to my chair and
put my feet up, as quietly as I can
read? or talk?
A cup of hot tea? My fingers warm up
touching the cup -- mm it begs my
lips now they touch the rim
and burn, and my whole
body warms up -- thanks, Mike

cat, Mary, nephew Jimmy, Richard, Ernie

2007-04-03T20:50:00.000-04:00

my brothers: Tommy and Richard

2007-04-03T20:37:00.000-04:00

when's my REAL birthday?

2007-04-03T17:41:00.000-04:00

[letter received from the United States Civil Service Commission]

June 14, 1939

Sir:

Receipt is acknowledged of letter dated January 26, 1939 relative to the date of birth of Mary E. Jones probationally appointed as junior stenographer at Washington, D. C., who furnishes a birth certificate, Town Clerk, Medway, Massachusetts, showing that August 24, 1917 is the correct date of birth. This date agrees with that given in examination papers. Notation accordingly is being made on the records of this office.

By direction of the Commission:

Very respectfully,

L. A. Moyer
Executive Director and Chief Examiner

--

Therefore, I, Mary E. Jones, hereby declare that my birthday henceforth, despite all official documents in and out of agreement, will be celebrated on August 24th and not on August 27th.

Richard

2007-04-03T15:51:00.000-04:00

The Pilot

The plane came zooming down and then
It circled round and round again
I loved that plane, I wished t’were mine
Coveted — the sleek design

I wanted to soar — to touch a cloud
Wanted to look down, shout out loud:
“Hey, look at me — I’m in the sky
I’m piloting the plane, am I”

And down I’m falling, back to earth
Tiny plane of steel (for what it’s worth!)
My brother, ten, down on his knees —
“Look out! Look out!” — I feel the breeze

A child was I though all of twelve
Into this play I chose to delve
And on that day he lay there, dying
I wasn’t there — I was up there flying

She’s twelve years old -- and not aware?
Perhaps it did not seem so
Please know that I could, I did care
Although I let no tear show

That awful day that won’t go away
A tear I could not shed
It’s sometimes what you want to say
That's worse than what you said

On that awful day that won’t go away
There it was, inside my head:
“It’s now my plane? The plane is mine
It’s mine — the pilot's dead.”

2007-04-03T15:08:00.000-04:00

yellow

you may find me here, absorbed in yellow
over the kitchen sink, with dishes done
I stand -- two goldfinch, black wings, yellow
sun turning them to gold, and you may
ask -- what am I looking at? I tell you
I watch for squirrels who knock down
my suet feeders, I look for
the woodpeckers, but no, it's yellow
yellow bird and then past the feeders,
past Kelly's cherry trees, across their yard
across the road, a large wagon wheel of yellow
and I come back and carry with me, yellow
five tall tulips — all yellow blazoned
with sunshine — after the tulips are gone
spiked skyward and yellow Jerusalem artichokes
fill the yard, and the goldfinches flutter
in and out while I look for an opening
and there — yellow wagon wheel

Asheville weekend

2007-04-02T17:31:00.000-04:00

my new look:

my new friend Bev:

my new friends Susan and Pat:

that last one was yesterday, before the "do"

with huge thanks to Kathy . . .

2007-03-30T20:39:00.000-04:00

Virginia, my brother Joe's wife, holding Kathy, age 2
My mother, Lillian Jones
My father, James Jones
Kathy's brothers Fran and Bobby

sunshine and shadow

2007-03-30T16:56:00.000-04:00

Mabel brought me to Middleboro where she worked summers at Lakeville State Sanitorium. She let me watch while she and an aide gathered up the littlest ones and spread them on the lawn, on mats where they could crawl or nap in the sun -- completely bare. Mabel believed in the sun's cure or at least benefit. These children had polio or some bone problem, and she believed a daily dose of sun just might help. She had the aide take me into the hospital while she sat with the babies outside.

Inside I couldn't believe my eyes. Young children with complete body casts, arms and legs fully active, some with lesser casts -- making their way, however they could, from crib to crib, shouting, laughing, pulling at one another and having a great time and the place was as raucous as any playground I've been in in.

It was beautifully noisy, and sad.

Ernie

2007-03-30T08:46:00.001-04:00

ESTHER, ERNIE AND I WERE IN HIGH SCHOOL TOGETHER --WELL, NOT REALLY TOGETHER, WE HARDLY EVER RECOGNIZED ONE ANOTHER ON THE SCHOOL GROUNDS. HOWEVER, ERNIE DID MAKE SOME WAVES SOMETIMES AND I'D HEAR AND I'D HEAR ABOUT THEM SOMEHOW. ONE DAY ERNIE CHALLENGED HIS MATH TEACHER, THE PRINCIPAL, WHO WAS AT THE BOARD EXPLAINING SOME MATH PROBLEM. ERNIE INTERRUPTED HIM AND SAID "NO, THAT'S NOT IT!" HE WOULD NOT LET THE PRINCIPAL SPEAK ANY FURTHER BUT INSTEAD STARTED TO ARGUE, AND RUSHED UP TO THE BLACKBOARD TO CHALK HIS IDEA ON THE BOARD. THE PRINCIPAL WAS VERY ANGRY AND MADE ERNIE LEAVE THE ROOM. LATER THE HE MET ERNIE IN THE HALL, PUT HIS HAND ON HIS BRIGHT STUDENT'S SHOULDER AND APOLOGIZED SAID -- "YOU WERE RIGHT, YOU KNOW. AFTER THAT, HE AND ERNIE WERE GREAT FRIENDS. THIS WAS TOLD TO ME BY BILLY, ERNIE'S BEST FRIEND, AND MINE.

ERNIE WAS GOOD IN ENGLISH TOO. HE WOULD CARRY SHAKESPEARE IN HIS BACK POCKET. I NEVER SAW HIM STUDY BUT HE ALWAYS KNEW THE ANSWERS. HE STUDIED IN THE STUDY PERIODS OR AT LUNCH. HE WASN'T A GREAT MIXER, STANDING AROUND CUTTING UP OR THINGS LIKE THAT.

HE AND I WERE GREAT FRIENDS AT HOME -- I THOUGHT HE WAS THE GREATEST. HE COULD ORDER ME AROUND: GET ME THIS, GET ME THAT, FIND THIS FOR ME. AND HE'D GO ON PLAYING HIS TRUMPET. I LOVED THAT TRUMPET AND SOMETIMES HE WOULD PLAY THINGS WHEN I ASKED HIM TO, BUT ONLY AFTER PLAYING A SONG OR TWO THAT I DIDN'T ASK FOR, JUST TO SEE IF I'D GET MAD BUT I DIDN'T.

ERNIE ALWAYS WAS READY FOR AN ARGUMENT. HE ALWAYS SEEMED TO WIN OR MAKE SOMEONE REALLY MAD. THIS WAS A DISQUIETING MOMENT IN THE HOUSE.

ERNIE WAS DISSATISFIED WITH HIS LIFE, AND DISAPPOINTED. BUT HIS TRUMPET BROUGHT OUT HIS SMILE ALWAYS. WHEN HE WAS ACCEPTED AT MASSACHUSETTS INSTITUTE OF TECHNOLOGY AND LEARNED THAT THE MONEY WASN'T AVAILABLE FOR HIM TO GO THERE, HE JOINED THE ARMY, PLAYED IN THE ARMY BAND AT FT. DEVENS, MA. HE'D HAVE SOME SOLDIER BRING HIM HOME ON OCCASION, BUT GOT UPSET WHEN THEY PAID ANY ATTENTION TO HIS LITTLE SISTER -- I DIDN'T CARE, ONE WAY OR THE OTHER. I JUST LOVED TO HEAR HIM PLAY THE TRUMPET, ORDER ME AROUND, AND SMILE. BEAUTIFUL!

Leo

2007-03-30T07:52:00.000-04:00

My second oldest brother, Leo, is forever in my memory. He was always here for everybody. I remember him down by the river, with his rose bushes, his canoe. His rules for Ernie (who will be covered in another tale) and me not to get too close to the water, not to step on his flowers.

Leo was here with his car, to take us on rides, to visit with our aunts and uncles, and cousins in Watertown, Quincy, or just to ride and see the scenery, water, farm country with its cows, or to Boston, and on such rides we occupied our time singing, playing road games, naming the various cars on the road, checking out plates from different states, counting the cows

Leo played the violin, and sometimes would play with my brother Jimmy, who was here occasionally, even after he married. Leo was tea teaching me to play the violin and I did learn one piece (I remember it -- Toselli's eSerenade). My teacher was very strict and demanded my full attention to the lesson. One day he was listening to my work and I noticed some eyes at the window; my friends Eleanor and Norma grinning and making faces. This was too much and no matter how much I pleaded, Leo only said, "ignore them." Of course I wouldn't, and that was the end of my violin lessons.

I especially remember Leo, helping me with accounting homework, when I was in high school, and making it all clear to me. I can still feel his presence, looking over my shoulder, to the point where I began to understand some of the practices and even enjoy the study. And I remember his small desk in the hall where his yellow No.2 pencils, all sharpened to a perfect point, lay lined up, not to be disturbed by anyone (he made that quite clear to all of us). Leo was an accounting supervisor at Fabyan Woolen Mills, and the building they occupied became the location of Esther's Condo (at Sanford Apts) -- but another piece on my sister, Esther

When he worked at Fabyan Mills, Leo used to bring home bolts of woolen material, some really nice hues. Esther and I would select the wool we liked and Celia would made skirts for us. A few of my friends would stop by to look over the wool and for a small price, would purchase enough for a skirt, or jacket. They would prolong the visit, much to my distress, because they had Leo's undivided attention and I was a bit jealous of this.

I will never forget the day Leo drove me to have an interview for job, after I graduated from high school and began to be somewhat of a nuisance hanging around the house. I dreaded this, and I am not sure I made a really good impression on the man I was applying to work for. Anyway, on the ride home, I said to Leo something like: "I don't think I got the job, but anyway it's not important -- I have plenty of time." Leo's response really shook me up: "It's important -- you have to work like the rest of us; you're not a princess, you know."

my sisters Thelma, Lily, and Mabel

2007-03-29T15:38:00.000-04:00

it seems to me

2007-03-29T15:32:00.000-04:00

that doctors, dentists, plumbers or what have you, tend to believe that only their time is precious. Maybe there should be a different approach:

Dial the doctor's office. Tell the "girl" that you would like to see the doctor at 2:30 on Thurday, October 9th and that he could call back to confirm.

Use the same technique for the plumber: "My kitchen sink is leaking and I would like to have it fixed at once — can you come within the next 30 minutes? You can't? Okay, then I'll have to call another plumber. Thank you."

OR: Perhaps the eye doctor: "I would like to have an eye check up on Friday or Saturday of this week. Can you see me? Ok, then I'll call someone else. But I will put you down for another year, possibly, for my next check up. Mark your calendar, my name is . . ."

Perhaps for the painter: "I have 3 rooms that need painting. If you will drop by before the week is over, I may have time to show you what needs to be done. You may call first if you like, to give me a time. Just leave a message on my answering machine so that I will be at home when you choose to come for a briefing and possibly we can make some arrangement for the job."

Mabel

2007-03-29T10:14:00.001-04:00

My oldest sister Mabel, before she became a nurse, was the one we ran to when we stepped on a nail, scraped our knee, got a splinter in our hand, or "couldn't see." Mabel soaked our foot, bandaged our knee, lifted out the splinter, removed the foreign object from the eye. She smiled at our faces and things got better. After a while Mabel wasn't with us anymore; she was away studying to be a nurse. Occasionally, one of my older brothers would drive to Framingham and bring her home but only for a short time, and then we'd bring her back to the Nursing School in Framingham. We enjoyed the ride but were always sad to leave her there. But there were later times, after she became a nurse and later after she was firmly established as an RN and had her own car, that she would take us for rides, we'd sing (she'd teach us the words), we'd read the Burma Shave quips posted along the highway, look for cows in the fields and horses down by a fence and number plates of another state, as the cars whizzed by.

in Hawaii, my nephew John

2007-03-27T19:05:00.000-04:00

the missing man

2007-03-27T17:58:00.000-04:00

I forget his name -- he was nice, easy to be with, a great rollerskater, and he drove up every Sunday afternoon (this was our date) with his mother -- he said, "she loved to go for a drive on Sundays." And he had a job, tending guinea pigs at a local hospital, feeding them, cleaning up after them, making sure they were "comfortable for the night." I was dating soldiers -- hand-picked for me by John. John and Catherine had brought me up from Medway to their home in Virginia -- Fort Myers, home of the 3rd cavalry -- they had two young daughters and watched over me as they did their daughters. But I was 23 and looking for my independence, which I couldn't have (or thought so) at home. This photo was taken at the Fort one day. John, seeing the car drive up would say, Here's your "guinea pig nurse, Mary" -- he was somewhat cruel at times (particularly when he'd prefer I'd pick one of his soldiers).

Jimmy

2007-03-26T18:35:00.000-04:00

My father to my mother, Jim
To his brothers and sisters, Jimmy
My oldest Brother Eddie named his first child, Jimmy
"Little Jimmy" he became all his life,
at least to us in the family
Another brother who was, by the way, named Jimmy
named his first child James Allan --
called Allan but in his later life,
called Jimmy by his friends
And my other brother, Ernie named his fourth child Jimmy
And a cousin named her child Jimmy
Who knows, as I go through my family tree
I may find a lot more Jimmys --
a nice friendly, lovable name,
don't you think?